NYE's Eve.

We are down to the day before New Year's Eve.  Whew, it has gone by so fast.  I'm not going to make any new year resolutions.  I am  just going to try to do minor changes that I have implimented a couple of weeks back and continue them.  Making a new year resolution usually ends up getting broken after a couple of months so I thought by starting it before the traditional resolutions started it wouldn't feel like I was trying to make a change just because of a new year starting.  My little girl will be graduating from Kindergarden in 2012.  I am totally mixed about that because its just another sign of how fast time is flying by since she was born.  I am still in the middle of fighting off this virus funk that is going around right now.  Dr. called me in amoxicilin, but said to just increase little girl's fluids....... hmmmm why would you give me an antibotic but not one for her?  I just don't get doctors at all sometimes.  

Well I have been playing around and getting to learn my camera more and more.  Oh this is going to be fun.  I feel so lost sometimes, and I feel like I have been reading the same chapter over and over and nothing from it is sinking into my brain.  Well I will be trying stuff soon.   I have been trying to feel more comfortable with using the camera before I post any photos just yet.  I did get a couple of photos of the princess with her makeup artresty (is that how its spelled?)  She put lipstick in this line all around her mouth kind of making her look like Heath Ledger saying Why so serious???? The princess definately dances to the beat of her own drum......  (I do wonder if it sounds like eisa drummers?)  I hate that I am not in japan right now and I will be missing out on a lot of different things, but I am pretty much at peace with it, and I am going to enjoy getting to spend some more time here at home where there is an actual change of seasons.............. ok well, normally there was.  This year not so much so.  It feels weird still being in the 50's and it is the end of December.  Who knows what January will bring.   I wish everyone a safe and sane new year's day.  Please try to stay safe.

Holiday spirit

Well the holidays are steadily approaching and because of  insanity at my sister's work, we went ahead and celebrated for the most part early.  Every year it is the same thing, she has to work, and I keep on hearing the excuses over and over that because other people are married and have kids that they need the time off to celebrate with their kids, well what about my sister's family?  Do we not count for anything?  Nope, obviously being single gets you no where.  I told her to tell them that since they are using that excuse then because she is single that she should get New Years Eve off to get her groove on.  Hey, at least it got a laugh from her.  At least the princess is young enough it doesn't really matter to her when we do anything on it.  She is currently sitting in the floor happily playing with her presents, talking to herself.  The biggest surprise is that Santa Claus hasnt come yet,  She will be beside herself when he does deliver.  She is so excited that she got the silly hair lalaloopsy doll right now though.   BOY was that ever a bear to get!!!  Sometimes I think her wanting what all the other kids want for Christmas can be so dangerous sometimes.  I did get really lucky and did all my shopping online this year, minus a couple of things I had my sister pick up in the stores while she was out.  I have been joking that it looks like I am having an affair with the UPS man.  He was coming to the house everyday he delivered bringing out all this stuff.  Matter of fact he was just here a few minutes ago delivering a couple of bags I ordered a couple of weeks ago.  I totally love our delivery man.  He is beyond kind and thoughtful.  A couple of weeks ago, everyone in the house was super sick with this nasty virus going around. Of course, it would be the day a HUGE group of boxes came in.  We seriously had 8 boxes!!  There was no way any of the adults could have carried them in, and I didnt want him exposed, so I had the princess open the door and have him set them down and she could carry them one at a time since they were all small.  He carried them all the way into the house and set them down in the utility room for her, I let him know I didnt want to expose him to the funk, and he just smiled and said it was no problem and he could bring them further if needed.  He has always been that nice.  I do know of a time when my mom was the only one home and the box that came was super heavy.  Since they took off the  toe off Mom's foot, her walk can be unsteady at times.  This driver, carried it all the way into the house and set it down out of the way for mom so she didnt have to.  This guy really goes the extra mile, and it definately is appreciated.  When we made our candy trays this year, we made sure to remember him.  With all the videos out there this past week of drivers doing so much wrong, I knew I had to tell about a driver who does good.

Third times a charm?

Ok so I have neglected things once again.  I just have had a hard time with getting started with the whole blogging thing for some reason.  I guess if I got motivated and got a bunch of readers, then maybe I would force myself into blogging more?  Who knows.  Life has settled into a strange rut.  I am back in the US right now on a visit of sorts.  I probably wont go back to Japan until the end of spring/early summer.  The princess started Kindergarden here, and I am not really motivated to move her in the middle of the year unless it is necessary.  We came back to the states to be here while my little sister was recovering from getting her tonsils taken out, and I just don't want to travel back alone again.  I am tired of it, and I know that physically I just can't handle traveling until I am in better shape anyway.  I plan on getting back to taking care of me, I have just let it go for far too long, and for once I plan on focusing on me.  My mom and sister don't mind helping me stay motivated, and helping me out with the princess while I am in the process of doing that either.  The soldier is too busy with work, and getting himself in order, so this rather self inposed seperation will help out us in the long run.  It isnt any  worse than going through another deployment.  I miss so much about Japan, but at the same time I don't.  I did find out this last journey from the states to Japan, that a group of friends that I thought would be there for me, really are not.  I think a huge wedge in the group is one person in particular, but I am not in the mood for childish call outs, rather I would just prefer to back away and let things go for a while.  Maybe in time, these friends and I will meet paths again.  In some ways it really hurts because I am back here, and I would love more than anything to get together and go out with a couple of them to dinner, but this person is usually in the middle.  Oh well.  It has reminded me that my military girlfriends and I are a much stronger knit group of girls.  I have even had one in particular drive over an hour to come and spend some time with me when we scattered dad's ashes.  Her and her hubby totally mean the world to me and words just can't describe the love I have for this couple of people. 

I am back to diving into photography again.  This time I am not going to start then toss it aside.  I plan to learn to use this digital beast, and I plan on trying my best to document what I am learning so maybe I can remember more.  I was getting pretty good with the whole 35mm  film photography when I finally switched to digital, then I got sloppy and let all the automatic settings take over for me and I feel like I have lost some of my vision that manually focusing and setting up shots with film taught me to do.  Not anymore, I gotta play with it all.  So why not show what I am learning as I go.  Who knows, maybe someone out there will learn a thing or two as well.  So lets see how this goes from here, shall we?