Ok, so I have been super busy from the first of the year until now. I have actually been living, and celebrating my word that's for sure. I actually got more active, and since the first of the year, I have actually taken off close to 50 pounds. I got to going a whole lot more since returning back to the states the end of Sept. I was driving around my new truck on my own too, and I never thought I would be doing that. I have never been a truck girl, but the opportunity came to us to buy dad's truck and we jumped on it. I know that we still have a year left at least, if not longer on Okinawa, but I know its a nice truck, and it will be looked after while I am gone. Plus it is kinda nice to have another piece of dad. I will post about what all happened with him soon. I just never had the heart to write it until now. I miss him terribly at times.
If you can't tell, yes I made it back to Okinawa, about a month ago, and I have been on go since then. I have been running around and going places as much as possible, and I am actually looking for my car. Kinda crazy but I need it to go and do things for me, while the soldier is at work, and I don't want to fully just depend on him.
Back to what all has been going on since my last post. The princess graduated from Kindergarten. I cried, and I am sad about it at times too because she wont be able to see those little cuties she became such friends with for a while. She became best buddies with a cute girl who is like her polar opposite in school. While the princess is quiet and reserved, this girl is outspoken and out there. They both are adorable, and when someone mentioned to her the other day that the princess was about to go back to Japan, she just cried. They were such close friends, but we have their address and they can practice writing to one another.
We moved mom and my sister from the farm in Kentucky, to a nice house in North Carolina, up in the mountains. I went ahead and got my license and started my last residency that I believe I will ever have. NC is home, I was born there, and raised there for several of my childhood life, and no matter what, it will be home. Okinawa is a close second home, and if anything ever happens to my mom, I may retreat here and never leave. Despite the crazy humidity, and typhoons, this place remains in the kind of way of life I remember from my childhood being raised in the south. Things are laid back here, and people are kind, and friendly, and normally speak to anyone.
I have been playing with my camera like mad, and experimenting more and more. I have taken it off automatic several times and played around with the setting to try to achieve the kind of pictures I wanted. Maybe I will get crazy and actually start posting some of them. I am so hesitant because of people out there who take the pictures and claim them to be their own. It just makes me hesitant about things, but who knows.
06 August 2012
01 January 2012
My Word
There is a thing out there, where people choose a word and it is like their inspiration for the upcoming year. I had seen it last year and had spent several days trying to think of word that would inspire me, and just failed so I didn't have a word for last year. Yesterday for some reason, my ipod led me to the blog entry for a local photographer that I am getting to know personally through Facebook and through several little online chats here lately through a common photogroup that we are in. I have admired her photography skills for a while and really love her spunk! Several times she has made me laugh with her responses to things. Come to find out through one of our little chats back and forth she is the same sign as me. This could explain a thing or two about why I like her then. ha ha ha. But back to what I was saying. I read her entry about her choosing her word for this new year we have upon us. She talked about how last year's word she hadn't focused on as much as she had hoped, and in my mind I was thinking how much I could relate. I debated on several words. Focus.... focus on me, focus on life, a camera's focus..... That could work, but it doesn't click with me. I was thinking of what all I wanted to do this year, and how much change will be involved and thought maybe change? Change me and my way of thinking. Change to becomea better mother. Change to become more active in several things I am passionate about. Change in my way of living......... Then it hit me. Like a ton of bricks on the head. I am not living right now. Not living for me, or what I love to do, I feel like I am floating through my life and what all is going on. I have been doing that a lot since dad died over a year ago, and to be honest, a lot even before that. I was just a body existing. My mind, spirit, and majorly and whole being was just doing that existing. Not living, not even alive. My stress level has just caused my brain and spirit especally to run on an autopilot for a while now, and I am tired of floating or just existing. So my word came to me. LIVE........ It has so many applications, and it is more than just a verb, it's an adjective, and an adverb.
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