My Word

There is a thing out there, where people choose a word and it is like their inspiration for the upcoming year. I had seen it last year and had spent several days trying to think of word that would inspire me, and just failed so I didn't have a word for last year.  Yesterday for some reason, my ipod led me to the blog entry for a local photographer that I am getting to know personally through Facebook and through several little online chats here lately through a common photogroup that we are in.  I have admired her photography skills for a while and really love her spunk!  Several times she has made me laugh with her responses to things. Come to find out through one of our little chats back and forth she is the same sign as me.  This could explain a thing or two about why I like her then.  ha ha ha.  But back to what I was saying.  I read her entry about her choosing her word for this new year we have upon us. She talked about how last year's word she hadn't focused on as much as she had hoped, and in my mind I was thinking how much I could relate. I debated on several words.  Focus.... focus on me, focus on life, a camera's focus.....  That could work, but it doesn't click with me.  I was thinking of what all I wanted to do this year, and how much change will be involved and thought maybe change? Change me and my way of thinking. Change to becomea better mother.  Change to become more active in several things I am passionate about. Change in my way of living......... Then it hit me.  Like a ton of bricks on the head.  I am not living right now.  Not living for me, or what I love to do, I feel like I am floating through my life and what all is going on.  I have been doing that a lot since dad died over a year ago,  and to be honest, a lot even before that.  I was just a body existing.  My mind, spirit, and majorly and whole being was just doing that existing.  Not living, not even alive. My stress level has just caused my brain and spirit especally to run on an autopilot for a while now, and I am tired of floating or just existing.  So my word came to me.  LIVE........  It has so many applications, and it is more than just a verb, it's an adjective, and an adverb.

  webster's defines it as.  "
Live

(Verb)

1.to be alive : have the life of an animal or plant

2: to continue alive

3: to maintain oneself :

4: to occupy a home :

5: to attain eternal life

6: to conduct or pass one's life

7: to remain in human memory or record

8: to have a life rich in experience

9: cohabit

transitive verb

1: to pass through or spend the duration of

2: act out, practice —often used with out 

3: to exhibit vigor, gusto, or enthusiasm in 

4a : to experience firsthand 
 b : to be thoroughly absorbed by or involved with

 

Adjective.

 

1a : having life : living 

b : existing in fact or reality : actual 

2: exerting force or containing energy: as a : afire, glowing 

 b : connected to electric power

c : charged with explosives and containing shot or a bullet : also : armed but not exploded

 d : imparting or driven by power

e : being in operation 

3: abounding with life : vivid

4: being in a pure native state

5: of bright vivid color

6: of continuing or current interest 

7a : not yet printed from or plated

 b : not yet typeset

8a : of or involving a presentation (as a play or concert) in which both the performers and an audience are physically present 

b : broadcast directly at the time of production 

9: being in play

 

Adverb

: at the actual time of occurrence : during, from, or at a live production"

 

I could hit on so much right now and break it all down but this is going to be my word.  There are so many different ways and meanings behind it, but I am going to LIVE.  No more autopilot, no more just existing.  I am going to be living, and totally LIVE.  Welcome 2012.  Coming to you........ LIVE.